New Becomings

There's a fine line between "Life's short, eat the cake" and "My arthritis is acting up because I had too much sugar" I am adding new, good habits to my life, but honestly I still have some bad habits. At this point, I'm actually heavier than I was when I started working out! I weighed myself for the first time since starting a 'regular' workout 7 months ago, beginning slowly at 2x/week, and moving to 3x/week at the start of 2021. Luckily, my friend/personal trainer calmed me down as she explained that I'm building muscle, and losing weight was not the goal of why I started working out in the first place - I needed more strength, as I was finding routine tasks physically more difficult. And, I've got what I call the ol' lady toes , which are painful warnings that the bad habits have taken over and should be reined in. Yay though! I do feel stronger and am definitely more flexible. My clothes feel less tight. But that nagging scale... ...

The BackStory 7 months ago, I started working out with a friend, via Zoom, who is a personal trainer. We'll see how this goes... 5 months ago, I turned 50. The time of life where youth is far in the rear view mirror. Today, I start a new journey in discovering the joys and sorrows of living the second part of my life. The first part of my life, after growing up in a privileged yet average household, I began the journey into self-actualization -- meaning, a conscious effort to discover who I am, who I would become, and who I will become. In my 20s I hitchhiked around, performing music in venues and street corners as a singer-songwriter, lugging my guitar along with my tent and backpack. In those years, I dabbled in psychedelics, usually alone in the wilderness, and opening my mind to possibilities that were not apparent in the usual steps of school, job, house, and family - Though, there is nothing wrong with these things, and I now have all of them, they were not at the forefront i...