New Becomings

 Spend time contemplating who you want to be. Contemplating who you want to be changes your brain ~Joe Dispenza You don't need anyone to tell you the difference between feeling good and feeling bad. We label our emotions and stick them in a category of good and bad - Though there is a middle category that is neither good nor bad; I like to think of it as the transition field, where we take stock after feeling some sort of bad, before we get to feeling some sort of good. I love that space, it's the figuring out what happened and figuring out what to do next phase. It's a special place to sit, where the ego can't get in because it's not making you a puppet of your emotions. It's meditation without having to sit in a lotus position or having to leave where you are or go somewhere else because it's inside you, around you, it is you. Some people think contemplation is actually about 'thinking', yet I see it more of a rumination in silence, a non-judgement...

Misery is not a badge of 'I have it worse than you, so you can't possibly understand how hard it is.' I've been noticing lately that some people think I'm 'lucky', probably born with a silver spoon or had an easy life to get to where I am. It's pretty obvious when I say something that triggers some sort of jealousy or envy, then excuses come out as to all the reasons why someone can't be happy with what they have -- 'If only I could get rid of _____, I'd be better', 'I need ______in order to be happy' - Maybe without pain, a story has no meaning, maybe then it's boring and maybe that's even worse, a different kind of pain altogether, but it's still misery . It seems that the connection to joy, in the eyes of many, is from privilege or fortune, and if I had had a rough go then I'd be just as miserable as other folks struggling to just be in this world with its greed and anger and anguish and horrible things. I do ...